I was thinking to myself, what makes someone laugh his heart out. What makes him drop dead laughing?! . Is it a good joke?! . Is it a funny situation?! . Watching a funny movie?! . And what makes someone cry out hard and being gloomy?! . Is it the situation that affects us?! Or a movie or maybe a song ! . While thinking, I remembered that I didn't laugh that hard for a long time. I don't remember a specific situation that made me drop dead laughing.

I also don't remember a specific situation that made me really sad or even cry. And I asked myself what happened to me !!. Is it just me or there are people feeling the same way I do. Even if I laugh, I don't "really" laugh. I mean not really hard like  before when I was child. Compare this to every single feeling you have. Do you really feel the real feeling of the situation. Or just a little bit of it.

Well,, I guess we miss feeling the real "feeling". We don't love hard, work hard, play hard. Everything in our life has something missing. I remember when I was a child, everything was simple and real. I remember I was playing really hard, even if it is a simple game, I was enjoying it. Was really happy with it. When I get a simple toy, I was flying without wings. When I watch a cartoon like " Tom & Jerry " , the cartoon was very simple no complicated stories and not complicated graphics. But we all enjoyed it. My friends and I was inventing new games and keep playing till we die.

I remember, when I was young I dreamed of getting older to be more fee, to be able to do thing that I couldn't do when I was young. I dreamed of traveling alone. Dreamed of driving a car. And here I am, going everywhere, driving a car and do whatever I want. But still don't feel the same way I thought I would feel when I was young

I figured out that what makes everything around us is so "Gray" is the lifestyle. We grew up on black and white. Black means bad or lying, and white means good or the truth. Now we are living a gray world. We sometimes do things we don't know even if it's good or bad. There are so many issues that people themselves don't know whether it's good or bad. The more details in our life, the more complicated it gets.

I don't know whether I'm the only one who has this feeling, or there are many people around the world feeling the same way, just wanted to share this idea with you guys.

Do you feel the real happiness / sadness or it takes a few minutes then it vanishes ?!

I feel sorry for talking about this but unfortunately it exists, and as long as it exists, it deserves talking about it,, the  "two faced people" well actually two faced people might be the best of the worst case you could meet "2-10 faced people " depends on the situation they are in. Well most of us have met that kind of person at least once so far. They never disappear just like "good and evil" they can never just vanish from the life. Just like a chameleon, they just put the best face of the situation. And of course it's fake but as long as they get what they need then, it's okay for them. But they suck in one thing, only one thing which is they can never hide behind their faces so much, sooner or later they took the mask they put whether they needed to or not.

We all don't need to fake faces for others, like why should we?!!..We were born different. Everyone has got a brand new character. Why should you take someone's. We all have to use our own character, opinions, principles. Otherwise we will be having 3 or 4 standard characters everyone is using them. I mean if you are angry with someone, just be who you are, tell him that you are mad at him, and you are not okay with him. You don't like a person they don't like him, don't put a face of a friendly person. just be whoever you really are.every person is a unique one,why do you have to put someone's face.just stick with your real face never take it off. Cause once you take it off, you will lose yourself. You will never get to know who you really are. You will be lost in those many faces you have got. You will never know who was your real face, cause you simply abandoned it. Once you need it back, unfortunately you won't find it, which is really sad. Let your face changes normally and according to the situation, never manage or control your face. Let it express who you really are inside.

Have you ever met a two faced person?!